Post #223 "The Search For Self"

I am Consciousness.

I am a part, I am a piece, of the Collective Consciousness.

I am Humanity.

Consciousness Chooses, for Choosing is the action of Consciousness.

Because Consciousness Chooses, Consciousness Divides into two
Purposes; Being and Becoming.
Consequently, humanity also, through Choice, Divides into Being and Becoming.
Being is brought about through Observation.
Becoming is brought about through Perception.
The greater Consciousness, the Collective Consciousness, Chooses to Become.
The lesser Consciousness Chooses to Be.
This indicates that most of us choose to Become
Fewer Choose to Be.
Deductively, the Collective Consciousness has Chosen and Chooses to 'Become'.

 

In other words, the Collective Consciousness Chooses to Perceive Itself and to Perceive Reality.
Perceive, meaning that Awareness of Consciousness obliterates the 'what Is' in Reality
to what I. as Self. need this to Become.
As Becoming does not exist in Reality, its obliteration brings about a state of Image.
There can only exist Reality or the Image of Reality.
The Image is not the Reality.
Basically, Image does not exist in Reality and so exists (non-exists) in 'Nothingness'
'Nothingness' is 'Nothing', but 'Nothing' relates to Reality as chaos.
-----Chaos, as in the churning chaos of Precreation.
------Precreation, as the dream,
as the dream of 'Becoming'

The Collective Consciousness, which is in Creation, Collective Humanity, has for the
most part, Chosen to Become.
But what of those of the lesser Consciousness, those that have Chosen to 'Be',
to accept Self and to accept Reality as Is?
Self as Self, in relation to 'Other' as Singularity within Reality,
thereby determines Reality to Be, to hold within it, Self and Other.
Of course, the Collective Consciousness includes all Consciousness,
those of the greater Consciousness and the lesser Consciousness.
This means that Consciousness contains within itself Division,
Division, the activation, the churning and the pulsing of Chaos.

Needless to say, those of the lesser Consciousness are very uncomfortable within
the Collective and would give anything to get out, and of course, their presence within
the Collective is very uncomfortable to the Collective, and these certainly want them out.
The lesser Consciousness can emerge from the Collective and Must Emerge.
Emerging from the Collective is very difficult to do, because it entails a letting go of
all that is Worshipped, for Worship is what brought about Creation in the first place.
What caused/causes Consciousness to Choose as it has and as it does?
Consciousness Perceives Self and Perceives Reality as the Other.

But there Is only Self and Other.
Does Consciousness Choose, then, to want to confuse Self with Other?
Does Self want to Become Other?
Does Self in Perception, Perceive itself not as it Is, but as it dreams itself to Become?
Does Self Perceive Reality, not as it Is but as a 'vagueness', as a 'beyondness', as
a 'vastness', as a 'incomprehendableness'?
Is Consciousness threatened by the Perception of Reality as beyond inself, as vaster than
itself, as unable to be defined, as unable to be controled, as more powerful that
itself?  

Is Humanity threatened by 'other' anything or anyone considered to be beyond, or outside
of, or incomprehensible and so unable to come under the Power of Self?

Consciousness Chooses to not accept 'what Is' but Chooses to create what isn't.
Humanity Chooses to Perceive Itself and to Perceive Reality.

Of course, this has absolutely no effect on Reality, for Reality IS.

 But what about Consciousness?

What about Self?

Consciousness can be and is affected, because by Choice, the Self of Consciousness has

entered a state of non-being.

A state of non-being is a created state made up of one's dreams and desires that

is outside of Reality.

The dream, of course, is that the dream 'Becomes' Reality, means that the Reality

of Reality must be blocked or negated so that a dreamed or contrived state of 
pseudo-reality takes its place, for Reality Is and is Not Created.
The dream 'Becoming' its own reality creates the Reality of non-reality.
Non-reality is real only to that and to those of non-reality.
Non-reality is real only to the dreamers of the dream, the creators of non-reality.
Non-reality, then, consists of not only the dream but the process by which it takes on its
own reality by fulfilling its own purpose.

Its purpose is what Consciousness 'Becomes' through its Perception, through its Imaging,
through its dreaming.
What Consciousness Perceives, Consciousness Creates.
Consciousness, to fulfill its dream of 'Becoming', Creates---Creates the whole
of Creation.
The Collective Consciousness 'Becomes' 'The Creator' through its Division of Self into
Self , and, not the Other of Reality, but the replacement of the Other of Reality
with the 'other' of Self.
This 'Other' of Self is Self plus the Image of the Other of Realty, thereby creating
the Image of Other.
Basically, Self sacrifices Self to achieve the transference of Self into
The Creator of Creation.

Now the relationship of Self to its 'other'Self within Self' is chaotic because all occurs within
the Self....all the dreaming and all the disappointment because the transference
of Self into Reality does not and cannot take place and one is 'stuck' with just the Image.
Not only that, but Self paid a big price when it Chose to lose a part of itself
to the division of Itself.
Actually, that part of Consciousness that was broken off from the Self will and does
pay the greater price because Creation calls for Worship.
Creation is a work of Worship for Creation to occur calls for Worship---not of
reality, but Worship of Self.
For it will be and is through Worship that Consciousness Becomes the God of Creation.

The struggle for survival ensued and ensues.
It has only intensified in Creation, in our history.
Even though Reality was hidden behind the walls of Creation, the Womb of
Creation, the memory however blurred, was and is stored as Information in Energy.
The stored information of non-reality will last as long as Creation.
Memory of Reality, however, stored and accessible to those of lesser Consciousness, lasts
Infinitely within the Infiniteness of Reality.

         

 

          (Continued on next post, Post #224)

 

 

 

Post #222 "Who? How? What? Why? When?"

When Consciousness chooses to Perceive instead of Observe, Consciousness creates and
enters non-reality.

Perceiving is not accepting 'what Is' as 'what Is'

Perceiving is choosing to negate or to cancel out 'what Is' for 'what Isn't'

'What Isn't' cannot and does not exist for Reality.
This choice does not affect Reality in anyway.

It does, however, totally affect Consciousness.

In Perceiving, Consciousness Chooses to determine its existence outside of Reality.
Existence outside of Reality must be created.
Existence outside Reality can only be created by Consciousness.
Consciousness creates through Perception.
Consciousness can only create through a Perception of Reality
In Perceiving, Consciousness cancels out the 'Other' of Reality and in the place of
'Other', substitutes Self, thereby Dividing Self into Self and into 'Other'
In Perceiving, the Divided Self exists outside of Reality, but within itself, in its own dreams
 and created pseudo-reality.
Perceiving Self within Self eliminates the 'Other' of Reality.
'Other' is essential to Self  'Being' Self, as it is 'Other' that affirms Self into Entity
and into Infiniteness, the components of Reality.
Upon the Collective Choice of Consciousness 'to Become', Consciousness Divides
itself through its Perception of itself and the Other of Reality.

Consciousness is made up of parts and pieces of itself.
Each part and piece is a mini reflection of the whole, consequently each part and
piece Chooses.
The parts of Consciousness that Choose to remain within the Collective, forming the
Collective Consciousness, block out Reality.
Reality is blocked that existence is determined according to Choice 'in the Becoming',
in a sense, in a future that is not yet created.
The Collective Consciousness, through its Choice, sets off Creation, identified as 'First Cause'
by religion as 'the work and plan of the God of Creation,
and by science as the release of photons of light, creating the cosmic microwave background,
known as the Big Bang.
What exists outside of Reality does not exist in Reality.
What does not exist in Reality is not Real.

If Creation exists outside of Reality, is Creation Real?
How does existence exist outside of Reality?
What states of existence within humanity are not Real?
What states exist in humanity, that are within humanity, within dreams and desires,
 that have absolutely nothing to do with Reality?
Can we Create our own Reality through dreams and desires?
Can we dream Creation and then wake up and realize we have lost Reality?
Do we really exist within our own dreams?
Have we lost Reality?
-----------After all, we do have Choice.

What happens to that part of Consciousness that Chooses 'to Be'?
What happens to that part that Chooses Reality rather than a dream?
What happens to this other part then, that can and must emerge from the Collective,
 that it can Observe and be Observed by the Singularity, the Other, of Reality?
This is the other part of Consciousness that Observes itself and Observes Reality, that
Reality can, in turn, affirm the Self of Consciousness into Entity and Infiniteness----
the components of Reality.
 

Have we Created a dreaming universe?
Are religion and science created or of Reality?
Did we inadvertently create death? 

As dreams are of Perception, dreams come and go because dreams exist only in the
state of the denial of Reality.

As Consciousness is a whole made up of its own parts, each part totally contains

within itself the whole of Consciousness.

This means that each part has Choice, as a part of Consciousness, and each part Chooses

for itself as independent from the Whole.

Most parts of Consciousness Choose to exist as part of the Whole as in the Collective
Consciousness.

A small portion of the whole chooses Independently as in Individual Consciousness.

The individual choices of the parts of Consciousness Divide Consciousness.

This Division of Consciousness is 'First Cause', offsetting any of the contrived 'First Causes'

of Creation that image and dream explanations for existence as "In the Beginning-----" (religion)
or as the breakdown, the Big Bang, of its basic components into smaller and smaller pieces of
itself (science).

Consciousness Divides itself by its Choices to either Observe or Perceive.

 

The Choice to Observe means to accept self as Self 'Is', to accept self as Self, and not dream
self into 'Becoming' that which it Is Not.

Through this Choice to Observe, Self Observes Self as Self and Reality as Reality, bringing
Self  and the Other, as the Singularity of Reality, into Reality, thereby Observing, Witnessing,
and Validating Self within Reality and not within the dream or within the 'Nothingness'

of the Void of Perception.

The Choice of Consciousness to Perceive or 'to Become' enters Consciousness into the state

of  'Nothingness' for to not Choose 'To Be' is to Choose not to exist.

 When Consciousness blocks out the 'Other; of Reality, Consciousness Divides itself into
Its self and its 'other'

Now let's enter our Creation.
From here lets try to determine who we are.

The Choice of Consciousness to Divide itself forms all of history and beyond into
the depths of Creation, for Creation is, above all else, a process of Division.
Consequently, we are the result, we are the engineers, the planners and the extraditers.
We are Consciousness.
We choose----as humanity and as individual persons, 'To Be' or 'To Become'.
Our Choices Divide us.
Some of us Observe and struggle to emerge from the Collective as Individualists.
Most seek deeper commitment by sinking deeper and deeper into the Collective.
We all suffer from the Division of Consciousness and particularly from the loss
of Reality, for the loss of Reality brings about a loss of Self.
Separation from Reality is loss of true Other.
Without Other, we lose Self.
We are not able to Observe or be Observed.
We are not able to Witness or be Witnessed.
We are not able to Validate or be Validated.
We keep breaking down into smaller and smaller pieces of ourselves.
 We are not able to form
Entity.
We do not know Infiniteness.
We die.

How much of our Choice to remove Reality haunts our inner hidden selves?
How much does our Choice to remove Reality cause such longing and chaos?
We never seem to be satisfied with, or even remember, our dream of 'Becoming'
and frantically try to tear ourselves apart striving for a Perfection that cannot
even be defined.

Who are we?

What have we Created?

(This post is the beginning of a series of posts seeking answers to our basic questions of

existence, or maybe, just seeking a lost Reality.)

 

 



Post #221, "God and Reality"

As Consciousness Chooses to Perceive rather than to Observe, Reality disappears because
Reality Is.

'Is' is and does not 'Become'.

Reality does not exist in 'Becoming'.

Individual Consciousness emerges from the Collective in Observing, and thereby
Witnessing, which Validates the 'Other' as 'Other'---the Singularity of Reality.

Reality Is, Reality is Observed, Witnessed, and Validated by the Individual Consciousness,

thereby allowing Reality To Be.
Thereby allowing Reality to Exist for itself that itself, in turn, may be Observed, Witnessed,
and Validated by Reality.
The Validation of Reality for itself thereby allows those of Individual Consciousness to exist
in Reality as Self to Other in Entity and Infiniteness.

This is the Self of Individual Consciousness that can and must emerge from the Collective.
The Self of Individual Consciousness gains its Identity through Choice to Observe
itself and the Singularity of Reality as 'Being'.

In comparison, those of Collective of Consciousness do not exist in Reality also through Choice.

These are not able to be Observed, Witnessed and Validated by the Singularity of Reality

as they do not exist in 'Being' but only in 'Becoming' and so can only be Perceieved and not Observed.
These lack Identity as they cannot Observe, Witness, and Validate themselves.

As they lack Identity, they seek that Identity within themselves and they begin to Create.
They create and then enter their creation thereby 'Becoming' part of their own pseudo-reality.
They seek Identity in Creation but as Creation is not Reality, there is no lasting satisfaction in
a pseudo-Identity in a pseudo-reality

Through the Choice 'To Become' rather than 'To Be', Identity is lost.

By denying Reality, the self/the singularity of the Collective cannot Observe itself in Reality
but can only Perceive itself, not as it 'Is' but as it dreams itself to 'Become'.

Observation is necessary for Witness. Witness comes before Validation meaning that without Validation, those of the Collective Consciousness do not exist other than in the dream
of 'Becoming'.

No Validation from Reality means incapable of Entity.

No Validation from Reality means incapable of Infiniteness.

Consciousness cannot exist and does not exist in Reality because those of Collective
Consciousness do not have Identity.
In pseudo-reality, in our creation, the self becomes frustrated as it is not able to be affirmed
as the Self of Reality, without being Observed, Witnessed, and validated by the 'Other' of
Reality.
Self alone cannot affirm Self.
 

Lack of Identity has everything to do with what can be Observed in history from

the beginning of Creation to its end.

Lack of Identity helps explain the franeticism of daily life that can never seem to

achieve that evasive state of Perfection.

We cannot even describe that Perfection because of its elusiveness.
What does Perfection mean?
Is Perfection and God the same?

But what does this quest for an indescribable, unattainable Perfection mean?
Is it a search for God?
or, am I God?

Could it be that what is so longer for and so desired is that which was Chosen to

be hidden from?

Could we really be dreaming of the Perfection of Reality, the longing to be

Observed, Witnessed, and Validated as our self of Entity and Infiniteness?

Wow! What a price to pay.

And for what?

to create an existence apart?

to Become God?

To begin and to end?

To live in an environment that breaks down into smaller and smaller pieces of itself

as do we ourselves?

Lets focus God into this as it really is about God.
Does God fit into Reality or Creation?
Now this is a huge question.
By all accounts it would seem that as Creator, God is all about Creation as the
God of Creation, but as Creation is the distorted and inverted image of Reality
there seem to be Reality and Creation that do not claim the same existence, being
that Reality 'Is', while Creation 'Becomes'.
We're talking about two very incompatible levels of existence here.
but what, again, of God?
Is it possible that we create God, in place of the 'Other' of Reality for the purpose
of affirming our existence?
In Creation, all hinges on God.
Even if one is in total denial of God that denial of God becomes that one's existence.
In Creation, we either seek affirmation of Self through 'Becoming God' or by
seeking to become possessed by God. Either of these gives us Identity.

As Consciousness divides itself through Choosing, it Chooses to either 'Be' or to 'Become',
Consciousness Choosing is process.
Consciousness Creates.
Creation is a process.
Creation is a processs of Division.
Creation is a process of division that breaks itself down until the pieces become so
small and insignificant that they just fade away.

When the Collective Consciousness Chooses to Become, it cancels itself out of
Reality
That Reality that no longer exists for those of the Collective Consciousness.
The Collective Consciousness consists of parts of itself that form its whole.
These parts choose as the Collective but also choose as a part, as a piece, of the whole
which is descriptive of persons making up the whole of humanity, that while choosing for
the whole, and also Choose for themselves individually.
Each part of the Collective, that has blocked out Reality, seeks Identity through imaging.
Each part divides itself that it may reproduce within itself the Self and Other of Reality.
In dividing itself, humanity now becomes two that it may have Identity and survive itself.
One part becomes the food that the other part feeds on-----its all about survival.
The part (those persons) that becomes food is symbolized as a bowl, a womb. Their purpose is to become food for the other's consumption.
This part of Consciousness created God.
This part Validates God as God is not God without Validation.
God is Validated through Worship.
This is the Worshipper.
This is the part (those persons) who Worship
This is the Feminine

The other part of the Collective, the consumer of food, the consumer of the Other, the
feminine, is symbolized as a spear/weapon,
This part is concerned with Possession, Identity, and Authority.
These are brought about by weapons.
This is the Worshipped.
This is the Masculine.
The Worshipped are brought about as God through Validation.
Validation is brought about by Worship.
We create our own God and we are our own God
as long as we are aware of who we are.
As long as we have established and conform to our Identity.
Consciousness is the Worshipped and the Worshipper.
Humanity is God and The Chosen
This 'weapon' Becomes God through Validation of Worship.